Life feels pretty bad...

It's been two weeks now since me and my girlfriend broke up.
I still have very little appetite, I was never very well built as it was, and I've lost more weight, I weighed 8st and have now lost half a stone. Quite alot really. I get really bad mood swings too, getting quite depressed or very snappy at people.

I've genuinely had to go out and buy some marijuana just so I can start eating again, so I'm gonna get high and play Gaylo Reach Around with some friends on friday. The only times I never think about my break up is when I am with friends, and being that I am on job seekers, I don't get to see my friends too often, because they're either in college, school, university or have a job.

Do you ever see a person, and you immediatly fall in love? That's what I did with her, and was genuinely surprised when I thought to see if I could get a relationship or some kind of affection and did. Breaking up... Is the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my entire life.

Her reasons were fucking stupid, a collection of several small flaws in me. Bitch, oh which I was tempted to counter argue, I'd rather stay on neutral terms then begin to hate her if she were to get pissy and argue.

I mean, it really surprises me, we went to France together and stuff, to meet my dad. That's pretty big. I often question the validity of her reasons, and often think of asking her if those were the actual reasons for breaking up. But I don't want to make things worse between us.

Break ups fucking suck, and I hope none of you ever have to deal with it.

Find someone and hold the fuck on.

EDIT

Today I was finally feeling good, I thought I was really making progress, really getting over her.

Open Facebook, check my news feed... She is now in a relationship.

Tore me apart...